Pumpkins, Harvest, & Life

Seriously is it really fall? Where did the summer go? This summer was packed with many new adventures and new experiences. I've had the chance to reconnect with old friends and meet new ones. There have been major shifts and changes in my life and I really feel like I'm a different person then I was. I signed up for school again and I think to myself why did I ever stop? I love the feeling of completing a class or acing an exam, it seriously just makes you feel so good about yourself. Plus my school sends me little "Congratulations" notes about how well your doing and little inspirational quotes haha its kinda nice. I can't wait to finish and finally have accomplished something that's been a long time coming!
I also went to Vegas with my family and we had tons of fun! Lots of pool time, drinking, gambling, and seeing my best gals. It was nice to get away and just have some fun with family and friends. Only thing missing was Amy and Brandon since he cant really drink yet still from his accident, they didnt want to be the only sober ones in Vegas!
A couple weeks ago I got the chance to spend an entire week down south with Amy and Brandon! We went to ropings and dancing and that saying is so true, wrangler butts do drive you nuts! It was such a good time and I got to go gathering for the first time and see my first branding. I thought the smell and castrating and such would get to me, but it actually was a neat process. And of course the saddle sore that comes with spending all day riding Miss Roxy haha. It was great to see the kids and I just can't believe how big they are getting. Kohan is like a little man now, so smart and such a little shit. Some of the things he comes up with just amazes me. And our little border baby Paige isnt really a baby anymore. She is such a beautiful little girl, with not much hair lol but she has a way of just wrapping herself around your heart. I can't imagine life without those two.
But here it is fall already, even though the weather isnt proving to be fall like, and I cant help but think where did the last 9 months go? It's true when they say the older you get the faster time seems to fly and the harder life gets. It's times like these when you sometimes wish you could go back to those high school days when life was so easy and just about playing sports and Friday night football games and Saturday night parties in the woods. Dont get me wrong I have lived and loved and enjoyed my life but there are those moments when you think "Oh to be a kid again". But we can't go back and we have to face life and make those grown up decisions.........So although I dont want to make such decisions I know I have to and it scares the living daylights out of me! But here is to moving forward and making tough decisions and not letting fear get in the way!

Love

I just read this quote which is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin. It's a description of love and i thought it was amazing. I hope that someday someone will be able to the say the same for me....

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

This so called crazy life

Well here is to say you just never know what is going to happen in life. Last week Brandon, Amy's husband, got into a really bad accident down in Douglas and was air evacked down to Tucson. Luckily Ms. Breann was there to greet him and keep Amy updated and calm till she could make it down there. But he suffered many broken/fractured ribs, 10 brain hemorages, and was pretty bruised up. He spent about 5 days in ICU and then went to a rehab center down there in Tucson. He is doing much better now that he is at home, but still is suffering from poor vision, intense migraines, and can't do strenious activity for months. I feel so bad for him, but I know he is tough enough to get through this. So after one terrifying trip to to Tucson, one long week watching the kiddos, and another of helping Amy and Brandon get moved into their new house and unpack, I came to realize that life is very unpredictable. Life can change in an instant, and its sad that it takes something like this to realize it. I've been not myself for the last 5 months and I've come to realize that I miss my old cheerful, full of life personality. I used to feel like I could accomplish anything and was a pretty confident person. Instead I'm doubtful and self-conscious. I've come to the conclusion after hearing Brandon talk of how better things look(such as the sky being more blue, colors more vivid, how beautiful the scenery is) after you almost die that I need to change. He had a talk with me about life being too short to dwell on the past or things that we lose. He made me realize that in losing one thing, I have the potential to gain many others. Not only in careers, but in love and relationships as well. I think its finally high time I move on with my life and stop looking back. At least I know I'm capable of putting myself out there and risking it all. I know when the right person comes along all my sacrifices will be appreciated and that person will always put me first. I am grateful for all the life lessons learned the last five years, and I know now what it is that I want. So here is to the next chapter in my life, may it bring many opportunities, love, a family, and a wonderful career.

Mama I'm Coming Home...

In the good ol words of Ozzie it does indeed seem this little bird is returning back to her nest. It's so crazy that given a month ago, I would never have imagined my life to turn out this way. So much has changed and happened in 2010 that seriously I'm almost wishing the year was over and done with already...but we still have 10 1/2 months! Anyhow I have decided that I am going to be moving home more than likely by the end of the month. What better way to start over fresh and all over again than to go home where it all began? I am excited to be around family and such, but do have anxieties about being up in a small town again. I mean can I really handle all the small town bull, gossip, and absolutely nothing to do? Haha only time will tell!

It's days like today..

...that I feel more lost than ever. Here I am trying to figure it all out. Move or not? Put in my two weeks notice or not? Decisions in life definetely get harder the older you get and after a week like the one I have had, I feel in no right mind to make a decision that will change the rest of my life. I feel literally broken and all I know is that I need to do something. Something to make me feel like I am doing something important with my life. Not just going to job I hate or not having any kind of life at all. Who knew that at 21 years old my life would be like this? I never would have thought a week ago I would be at the point that I am right now. With everything that has happened to me and to my loved ones in the last couple months, I can't help but think to myself when is going to get easier? When will God decide to stop testing me and my limits and decide to make things just a bit easy on me for awhile???

Betty Sue Homemaker

As GR's friends would say I'm becoming quite the little housewive. Except I dont have the house or the husbad haha. It's mostly due to boredom ha but I find that although I used to think I had no skills, the more I play around the more I find I'm actually pretty crafty. And whats even more great....I enjoy doing it! There is nothing better than finishing something and actually liking the outcome! haha

With that said, I have done some projects around the house lately. One includes making pillows. I saw this neat idea on HGTV(love love love that channel)about how to make inexpensive decorative pillows for like a bed or a sitting room. All you do is find some cute placemats, or in my case I did silk napkins and some precut fabric from joannes. The reason I chose napkins is because they are already seamed so you dont have to sew the edge on. Then you get some stitch witchery tape that onlly requires you to cut it to the size you want and press the iron and bam you have your seam. Do all three edges, stuff the pillow, do the fourth edge and your done.

It's so easy and they actually turned out cute. I made the fabric side smaller than the napkin side so that I could do some fun edges to kinda add character, but you could sew on little buttons or do some ribbon just have fun with it! I did the purple/cream one for a friend who just redid her room and I am making more of the brown/blue to match my bed set. Between the napkins about $1.75 a piece at Bed, Bath, and Beyond, the fabric about $1.50 each square, the tape about $4 and then stuffing $5 for a huge bag and of course those good ol Joanne's coupons this was waaay cheaper than buying throw pillows. What do you think?

Then GR found this table in a house right? it was really beat up and actually just that fake oak color( i forgot the before picture) but it had all kinda of scratches and what not. So I sanded it down, primed it white than paineted it black. Once I got done with that I sanded all the edges to rough it up and added the decorative knobs on the front to make it look like a drawer and dress it up. The whole project cost me rought $7 in knobs, maybe $8 in painted and I had the primer and sand paper in my trusty craft bag. I'm still searching for some decor that fits GR's personality to put on it but for now family pictures alwasy work! Plus it was orginally for people to put purse's and what not when they come over haha. Anyhow I did this once with my current tv stand and now I'm on the hunt for an old nightstand to redo for GR's bedroom since he only has one and drives us both crazy lol.

The Finished Product

2010 already?!

Happy New Year all! Can you believe that its 2010??? I am seriously in shock that 2009 went by sooo fast. I swear it felt like only yesterday that paige was born and now she will be one in 3 months! Kohan turns 4 tomorrow and its amazing how smart and big that kid has got. Amy and Brandon will certainly have their hands full with those two. Well I hope everyone had a great Christmas. I had my surgeory on the 18th and just decided to take the time off for the following week and go home. So Monday I drove home and boy was that a long trip. By the time I hit Payson my arms were like numb cuz they hurt so bad to hold up and steer the car lol...but I made it! We had a white one this year and I got to test out the Nitro in the weather. It did very well except on the infamous hill by our house. We had to drift around the corner to make it. But we spent Christmas Eve at the house this year with a mexican theme dinner and played scattegories. We had a blast! Gr came over and played with us and now he is addicted to that game. We play it all the time. Christmas morning we went to Snowflake and did presents at Amy and Brandon's. It was great. I got a new jacket from my parents and a bunch of clothes. Every girl loves clothes!! Then I went and hung out with GR and his parents for awhile and when I got back from that, we did a gingerbread house contest between my family, my dad being the judge. It was pretty funny what we all came up with. Then GR came over and we did dinner and once Chris got there it was on with the scattergories game again! haha im not joking the family is obsessed witht his game. Anyhow us kids got together and thanks to Gr's spectacular picture taking skills we put together a collage of photos for my parents for Xmas this year. Here are a few of them....